jason "why am i like this" todd (
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THE LOST DAYS... Round 2.
It's all darkness.
The feeling of nothingness, of being nothing. Of not existing. You have no thoughts, you will never have any thoughts again. While that fact is not comforting, because you cannot be comforted anymore, it is true.
There's a certain rest to being... nothing. And to both knowing and not knowing, that your time is done.
So it's all the more unfortunate when you feel, because you shouldn't feel. And the feeling is burning in your lungs, which you shouldn't have. Because you are- or were- nothing.
And then, you inhale a desperate gasp of air and open your eyes...
The feeling of nothingness, of being nothing. Of not existing. You have no thoughts, you will never have any thoughts again. While that fact is not comforting, because you cannot be comforted anymore, it is true.
There's a certain rest to being... nothing. And to both knowing and not knowing, that your time is done.
So it's all the more unfortunate when you feel, because you shouldn't feel. And the feeling is burning in your lungs, which you shouldn't have. Because you are- or were- nothing.
And then, you inhale a desperate gasp of air and open your eyes...
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[ well, she twirls her knife between her fingers, idly, and leaves the room, still frowning deeply.
how many levels are there to this place, anyway? ]
EVENT
Suddenly, the area seems to have a sickly green glow. To be honest, it's almost overpowering suddenly-- and she feels...
Despair? Self-loathing? Deeply, in her bones. It is hard to imagine how much she hates herself, and what she's willing to do to self-destruct, just to validate that feeling.
It's all too much, actually. It's hard to deal with.
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you know?
but—no. she knows who she hates, because 2d6+cool=9. ]
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What?
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[he sounds... angry. frustrated.]
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Well, it's not as if I was left with terribly much in the way of instructions apart from "the green stuff is bad." Could've figured that one out based on the last thirty seconds.
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[he sounds as though he despises the person that told her that.
but it's a mystery.
actually-- she sort of feels the depths of hate he has for that kid.]
Your instructions shoulda been "get the hell out."
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What are the fucking flowers about?
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New, fun decor. I kinda like 'em?
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Good for you, then, since I would have stabbed you if you'd said yes.
They're rude.
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[and then the ground collapses underneath her, and she finds herself landing hard in someplace familiar.]