Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - This memory does not trigger his awareness of what a mess his head is - He hates the other man in this memory with all of his being - He is acting with restraint, and he knows it - He wants to tell him who he is, but there is a solid awareness... that nothing he can do will truly hurt this man.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - He legitimately thinks he's doing the best he can here. - He doesn't get why Kori is mad, this was the best option? - Okay that was a dumb quip and Kori's right to be mad at him for it - He has uh... a team? He can tell he's not quite completely at ease with everyone there. - But that is definitely his "team." - Masks are important - He really phoned it in on the disguise.
Other things he notices that are more clear with distance: - He knows he dropped Crux off drugged the hell up, but also the place he dropped him off at is extremely familiar to him - And slightly comforting - And though he's not acknowledging it, he thinks it could help this Crux fellow. - And if it doesn't, well. He's drugged for the rest of his life.
- It's 2 hours long, in terms of time. - Jason realizes his teacher is an asshole and he thinks he's smuggling kids into slavery. - His investigation reveals he's right! - So he literally kills everyone in the compound. And finishes by poisoning his teacher.
Jason's immediate feelings: - Compared to memory 2, the anger level is up there. He doesn't even try to save anyone in this memory. - In fact, he's pretty sure this is him "not holding back" like he was in memory 1. - But holy shit, this still makes his blood boil. He absolutely can't stand the thought of kids being fucked with. - And he doesn't care if someone taught him important stuff, he has zero hesitation on turning it against them. - And playing dirty to do it. - He doesn't care about the mask, but he sees that red has always been a theme for him. Thanks, Hell. - Burning things is fun.
Other things Jason gets: - He knows German, so that'll be a rush - He knows how to lip read - Boy oh fucking boy does he know how to fight
SUMMARY: - Jason decides to break into Teen Titan's tower to challenge Tim to a fight. - It's... a straight up disaster for Tim, but good insight into Jason's frame of reference. - It ends with Jason referencing "what the joker did to me"
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Hurt. He is extremely hurt, it immediately brings to mind his second memory. Except worse. - He hates Tim with everything he has - But he mostly wants to protect him, he's doing this because he wants to prepare him for what's going to happen - He feels very erratic, like he can't quite track why he went about this the way he did, just that he had to - He's holding back. He doesn't want to kill him. But he's not going to lose.
Other notes: - He's going to obsess over this. What happened to him? Is that the reason he is the way he is?
SUMMARY: - This is Jason's most cherished memory. - It's while he's a new Robin, he gets sick, and much to his annoyance, Bruce and Alfred bench him. - I mean, he does have the flu. - But Bruce surprises him, and decides to take the night off as well. And so they watch movies together. - Or, well, Bruce does. Jason just conks out against him.
JASON'S IMMEDIATE FEELINGS FROM THIS: - None. Because this stupid idiot gave up this memory and never got it back. - He'll absorb it, and then all of the positive feelings will immediately vanish, once it's concluded. He won't remember what he just watched. It's gone.
SUMMARY: - Jason is kidnapped by the Joker and wakes up having no idea where he is. - The Joker keeps calling him "kid" and "son" - The Joker also shows him intimate details from his life BEFORE he was Robin - Jason is trying to escape, but he has no clue where he is
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Panic. Just straight up, sheer panic. Though he's smart enough to not show this in the memory, it just completely radiates. - The instinctive need to never let anyone know they've struck a curve. - The instinctive feeling that his whole life has been a lie? - Also that his whole life has been shit, but that he's protective over it. - He knows he's died now... and that he's come back to life? - His head hurts, a lot. He's just trying to keep moving forward, no matter what. - Hatred. He hates the person speaking to him more than he's ever hated anyone else.
Other things to note: - Ah, now he gets the crowbar joke he made in Talon's memory. - And why he felt it was so important to use a crowbar in his first memory. - It is at this point, he might start panicking and asking himself... "How fucked up am I?"
SUMMARY: - Quick conversation with Shay Veritas, which references a lot of people and events he has no clue about. - He's going to be teaching the next generation of super villains! - Because he doesn't like seeing teenagers get hurt when trying to act like adults (jason you're a teenager, seriously) - Something something, he considers himself their last hope before going off the deep end. - Also, definitely confirms he's died before. - And he gets his moniker! He knows he went by Red Hood! And that explains "Hoodie."
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - This memory is so much more even keeled than some of his other ones. But he feels really confident. - Very self assured. And he's convinced there's no other way to manage this. - He also realizes that he could go with the flow depending on what was happening. - Overall, this memory is another one for the "I was a good person" column.
SUMMARY: - There's a fight going on and he's definitely about to plummet to his death. - But his partner shoots him with and arrow, and he uses that to stop, because. Who cares about not getting injured. - The crowd below starts cheering for red bat? And Jay's confused as to WHY and HOW they can see them. - Roy admits they may be cheering for something else. (he gets Roy's name from thoughts) - He sees the rent-a-bat billboard and. Honestly? He's so tired.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - God he's bad at partnerships in this memory? - But also, he is unreasonably fond of the guy he's working with. - If this were literally anyone else, he would actually be furious. - But instead, it's Roy Fucking Harper, and he knows they are basically stuck together forever. - God damn it, Roy.
Brief summary: - Jason is on a mission to prevent a massive terrorist bombing, perpetrated by the Russian mafia on a bunch of unsuspecting arabic kids. - He pretends to be an undercover detective to get them to come with him, so he can grab the bombs. - He knows he's on a strict timeline, but he's doing pretty good until the last girl, who is not where everyone expected her to be. - She's actually on the London Bridge! WOW. - And after some fighting and cool driving with his motorcycle, he gets her to hand him the backpack with the bomb. - But the bomb has been tripped-- and he's stopped by an officer. - Which gives us the "Not now, Constable, Daddy's busy" line - Anyway because of the distraction, Jason doesn't have time to disarm the bomb. After a quick check, he throws it over the bridge, where it explodes harmlessly.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Add this to the "Maybe I wasn't such a bad guy?" memory pile. - He knows that part of what makes him real mad is that this is a frame job on a bunch of high schoolers. - Fuck the Russian mob, seriously. - But also it's a little exhilarating. He wouldn't say he liked it, but... - There's the feeling that he can't do anything but this. Nothing would be able to use his skills this way. - Also, he can affect a British accent when he really wants to. He recognizes that he was doing a cockney accent, rather than the standard British affect.
QUICK SUMMARY: - "Red Hood" was sent by Batman to look after Batgirl - Basically he's pretty sure she's about to botch whatever she's doing because she's emotional about it - And he's there to help her get justice/free her father - INTRO TO BABS. INDICATION HE WORKS WITH THE FAMILY AND NOT ON HIS OWN.
Jason's immediate feelings: - Cool, Batgirl's an old pro or something. - Reconfirming "Red Hood" is his moniker/alter ego - He's a lot more okay being manhandled by a girl than he realized - Still not 100% sure on the relationship between him and his family though - And yeah, he was always this cocky.
QUICK SUMMARY: - Jason and his outlaws track Ras to the antarctic. - Then get attacked by animen and the league of assassins. - Circe cuts them and drops their blood into the Pandora Pits. - AND THEN THEY ALL BECOME POSSESSED BY DEMONS.
Jason's immediate feelings: - Nope nope nope nope nope - Nah fam, this feels awful and he does not like it - He can't remember what exactly he's experiencing in that possession but - It feels extremely bad and he does not like the feeling of his mind breaking - fuck ras al ghul. just. fuck him so much.
Summary: - Jay is at an apple fest! He's being pushed all sorts of small town Americana here. - He almost buys it, but never fully lets down his guard. - And then they start shooting at him so, you know. - Probably good. - However the whole town goes after him? - And, uh, he gets knocked out with a sledge hammer to the face
Immediate feelings Jay gets from this: - Trust. fucking. no one. - Seriously, if they're overly hospitable you should be on guard. - He was already on guard. - But also he can't survive a sledgehammer to the face can he? He has to be dead? - But he knows he isn't, because he has memories from after this so he's very, very confused. - ... time to start trying to figure out what exactly he can survive.
SUMMARY: - Jason and Dick are doing a stakeout and Jason asks Dick about his new girl. - They bond over Dick talking about her temper - Jason tells Dick that angry people are always looking for someone to direct their rage
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - First memory of Dick (just "Grayson") - This is a positive family memory. He didn't have any of this? - This is also kind of the first time he's felt like he has a family in his memories. - He liked Grayson, too. - He's well aware of his rage issues.
THIS IS LONG AND NOT ALL OF IT EVEN REMOTELY INVOLVES JASON, so the summary is: - Jason is disguised and sneaking into a cult - He is trying to track batman. He sees them with him captured. - Hears they plan to kill him, so he tails along silently. - When Batman breaks free, they shoot him, and then claim the current of the sewers took him - So Jason jumps in after him - When he finally finds him, he sees him losing his shit about being damned on top of a pile of corpses
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS: - His. his first Robin memory. That didn't get eaten immediately. - This is going to be a fucking *trip* to him, because it's going to be the clearest his head has ever felt. - And it's his first real memory of Batman/Bruce. - It's also the least angry he's ever felt? - Actually all of his emotions feel in proportion to the situation, because this is fucked up. - No, seriously, he's going to be completely stunned. - he cares less about the content of the memory, because he's young so it probably worked out, what the fuck is wrong with his mind
SUMMARY: - The Joker is an asshole. - He's captured the bat family, and has convinced them all that he's actually ripped off their faces. - He's set a trap that basically requires that if Bruce moves, then he'll set them all on fire. - Then he proceeds to do joker things. - Batman DOES move and DOES set them on fire, but, also he puts it out immediately - Because these are HIS FUCKING CAVES.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Joker should die. - Joker should die. - How did he beat his face in with a crowbar and FAIL TO KILL HIM. - Joker should die. - Low key fatalistic about all this, like, ah yes. - Of course. This is my life. Of course this crazy motherfucker would do this. - How did I fail at killing him?
QUICK SUMMARY: - It's Jason talking through how and why he put down his teacher with Talia. - Finishes with her telling him "You are learning." - And he agrees with her.
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS: - Implicit and complete trust in Talia - A more complete sense of why he did what he did in his third memory - A strong sense of black and white justice. Some people deserve to be put down.
Summary: - Completing off this memory. It shows the family going crazy off of Joker's laughing gas. - The kids are basically begging each other to stop fighting but they all know they can't. - Bruce finally triggers the anti-venom in the knick of time. - Jason decides to go out drinking, rather than deal with that again.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Well he's not surprised, at least. - It is extremely depressing, though. He'll want to drink after this memory. - He's so, extremely fucking over the Joker. - And even more frustrated after the heart game.
Summary: - WE ARE GOING DEEP INTO BATMAN HISTORY. THIS IS JASON'S ORIGIN STORY COMIC. - He learns SO MUCH about his background here! - And also that his first time running into Batman was, you know. Stealing his tires. - Aw, he was so precocious. - Anyway, it ends with Batman giving him to Faye Gunn since he figures she'll put Jason on the straight and narrow. - Ha Ha Ha oops.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - ... Actually, this is a super helpful memory, after the last one. - His memories of being a kid are a breath of fresh air, actually. He's, what, 12? 13? Talon's age? - This is nice. - Big boob, classic kid insult. - He WAS normal, once. A long time ago.
Summary: - Jason meets Dick! - Jason is Dick's replacement, and Dick is super Not Happy about that. - They scuffle. - Jason talks so much shit. - Dick thinks he has Jason trapped, but Jason manages to get away at the last second. - Then he's radio-ing Batman because he's confused, but Batman tells him and Dick, Nightwing, to go find Alfred. - Dick then firmly takes over leading.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Yep, he was definitely a handful as a child. - Now knows Dick's name, and not just Grayson. - Hasn't OFFICIALLY remembered Alfred, but he's there too. - Honestly, this whole memory is just kind of funny to him, even if it takes a serious turn at the end.
here to page 15, excluding the stuff that doesn't involve him and Alfred. SHRUG.
Summary: - Immediately post Damian's death, Alfred and Jason are talking about how he won't "like this." - "This" is hanging up Damian's uniform in the batcave. Alfred says he didn't like it when he hung up Jason's uniform. - Jason justifies why this is worse, because he was just another robin. - Alfred says that is not true. - Then they both get attacked, but Jason's out first. - And when he comes to, he tells Batman he's sorry, he failed. - Batman just tells him don't worry about it, the league will help him find out who attacked them.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - Ah, that's who Alfred is. - ... - ... - ... Yeah, he would probably die for Alfred. Immediately. - The rest is so thoroughly unsurprising to him.
Summary: - Jason calls all the heads of the Gotham drug trade and offers them a generous deal. - He basically manhandles the shit out of them and tells them he's not asking them to join him, he's telling them. - His one rule is to stay away from kids and school yards. - He tosses the heads of their lieutenants onto the table below when they ask why they should do it. - "These are the heads of all of your lieutenants. This took me two hours. Imagine what I could do with a whole night."
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - He's very angry. - And this is part of a grander scheme. An important part, but there are other things he's worried about here. - But he knows one thing: he feels absolute disgust at those people. But he knows that if he kills them, someone else will take their place. - So he's gonna own this.
This is Jason's death memory. IT SHOULD BE STRAIGHTFORWARD, but, uh. The fucking scene was redone in N52 lore. So, no real comics. Way more intentional on the Joker's part. So, I'll hit the bullet points of what he's getting:
- In this version, the woman he finds IS Cathy Todd. He's not gonna know her as that, but somewhere along the line, she became his real mother and not his adopted mother. (hence why i'm not just linking to "Death in the Family" or the N52 version that just... glosses over everything) - He thought she was dead, but he got lead on a goose chase to find she was alive. - This was a trap that the Joker used to separate him and Batman. - Then, the Joker tied him up and savagely beat him with a crowbar, while his mom watched and did nothing to help. - Then the Joker set a bomb and tied his mother up to kill them both. - Jason ended up mangling his hands to get out of the bindings, and then freed his mom. - But they both discovered that the doors were locked, and Jason was way, way too brutalized to disarm the bomb. - He probably would have died anyway, from the blood filling up his lungs. - So, the bomb exploded, but long enough for him to have to sit with the fact that he was going to die.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this: - There's a certain smug "you can't hurt me as long as I don't let it seem like you're hurting me" in this memory that... is extremely familiar to him, even now. - Panic and terror, and just an acute awareness of pain. - And a certain finality. While Jason knows he somehow revives, he knows that for him in this moment? That was not a given. He was going to die, and that would be all she wrote.
This is also just going to lead to a complete overload of BSOD for Jason. It also, also unlocks his night terrors fully. So, he's not going to be dealing well with this, even if he puts up a front about it. This one was unlocked on day 234.
SUMMARY: - This memory is gonna automatically purchase as two, much to Jason's annoyance. - Anyway, this is a good memory between him and Bruce, following up on him as a kid trying to fix Bruce's father's watch. - It's his birthday gift to Bruce. But he has to take it back because he hasn't quite finished fixing it. - He finishes the favor much, much later. Post death. - He leaves the watch for Bruce to find, rather than give it to him in person.
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS: - He genuinely loved Bruce. - Also, genuinely loved trying really hard to fix that watch, even as a kid. - Ambient fondness for Alfred, who was definitely watching him work on it for "five months." - He wasn't ALWAYS a pain in the ass as a kid... but don't let this ruin his rep.
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MEMORIES
MEMORY 1
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- This memory does not trigger his awareness of what a mess his head is
- He hates the other man in this memory with all of his being
- He is acting with restraint, and he knows it
- He wants to tell him who he is, but there is a solid awareness... that nothing he can do will truly hurt this man.
ASSOCIATED COMIC PAGES
MEMORY 2
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- He legitimately thinks he's doing the best he can here.
- He doesn't get why Kori is mad, this was the best option?
- Okay that was a dumb quip and Kori's right to be mad at him for it
- He has uh... a team? He can tell he's not quite completely at ease with everyone there.
- But that is definitely his "team."
- Masks are important
- He really phoned it in on the disguise.
Other things he notices that are more clear with distance:
- He knows he dropped Crux off drugged the hell up, but also the place he dropped him off at is extremely familiar to him
- And slightly comforting
- And though he's not acknowledging it, he thinks it could help this Crux fellow.
- And if it doesn't, well. He's drugged for the rest of his life.
MEMORY 3
Extra big memory, so I'll summarize this one.
- It's 2 hours long, in terms of time.
- Jason realizes his teacher is an asshole and he thinks he's smuggling kids into slavery.
- His investigation reveals he's right!
- So he literally kills everyone in the compound. And finishes by poisoning his teacher.
Jason's immediate feelings:
- Compared to memory 2, the anger level is up there. He doesn't even try to save anyone in this memory.
- In fact, he's pretty sure this is him "not holding back" like he was in memory 1.
- But holy shit, this still makes his blood boil. He absolutely can't stand the thought of kids being fucked with.
- And he doesn't care if someone taught him important stuff, he has zero hesitation on turning it against them.
- And playing dirty to do it.
- He doesn't care about the mask, but he sees that red has always been a theme for him. Thanks, Hell.
- Burning things is fun.
Other things Jason gets:
- He knows German, so that'll be a rush
- He knows how to lip read
- Boy oh fucking boy does he know how to fight
MEMORY 4
SUMMARY:
- Jason decides to break into Teen Titan's tower to challenge Tim to a fight.
- It's... a straight up disaster for Tim, but good insight into Jason's frame of reference.
- It ends with Jason referencing "what the joker did to me"
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Hurt. He is extremely hurt, it immediately brings to mind his second memory. Except worse.
- He hates Tim with everything he has
- But he mostly wants to protect him, he's doing this because he wants to prepare him for what's going to happen
- He feels very erratic, like he can't quite track why he went about this the way he did, just that he had to
- He's holding back. He doesn't want to kill him. But he's not going to lose.
Other notes:
- He's going to obsess over this. What happened to him? Is that the reason he is the way he is?
MEMORY 5
SUMMARY:
- This is Jason's most cherished memory.
- It's while he's a new Robin, he gets sick, and much to his annoyance, Bruce and Alfred bench him.
- I mean, he does have the flu.
- But Bruce surprises him, and decides to take the night off as well. And so they watch movies together.
- Or, well, Bruce does. Jason just conks out against him.
JASON'S IMMEDIATE FEELINGS FROM THIS:
- None. Because this stupid idiot gave up this memory and never got it back.
- He'll absorb it, and then all of the positive feelings will immediately vanish, once it's concluded. He won't remember what he just watched. It's gone.
MEMORY 6
SUMMARY:
- Jason is kidnapped by the Joker and wakes up having no idea where he is.
- The Joker keeps calling him "kid" and "son"
- The Joker also shows him intimate details from his life BEFORE he was Robin
- Jason is trying to escape, but he has no clue where he is
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Panic. Just straight up, sheer panic. Though he's smart enough to not show this in the memory, it just completely radiates.
- The instinctive need to never let anyone know they've struck a curve.
- The instinctive feeling that his whole life has been a lie?
- Also that his whole life has been shit, but that he's protective over it.
- He knows he's died now... and that he's come back to life?
- His head hurts, a lot. He's just trying to keep moving forward, no matter what.
- Hatred. He hates the person speaking to him more than he's ever hated anyone else.
Other things to note:
- Ah, now he gets the crowbar joke he made in Talon's memory.
- And why he felt it was so important to use a crowbar in his first memory.
- It is at this point, he might start panicking and asking himself... "How fucked up am I?"
MEMORY 7
SUMMARY:
- Quick conversation with Shay Veritas, which references a lot of people and events he has no clue about.
- He's going to be teaching the next generation of super villains!
- Because he doesn't like seeing teenagers get hurt when trying to act like adults (jason you're a teenager, seriously)
- Something something, he considers himself their last hope before going off the deep end.
- Also, definitely confirms he's died before.
- And he gets his moniker! He knows he went by Red Hood! And that explains "Hoodie."
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- This memory is so much more even keeled than some of his other ones. But he feels really confident.
- Very self assured. And he's convinced there's no other way to manage this.
- He also realizes that he could go with the flow depending on what was happening.
- Overall, this memory is another one for the "I was a good person" column.
MEMORY 8
SUMMARY:
- There's a fight going on and he's definitely about to plummet to his death.
- But his partner shoots him with and arrow, and he uses that to stop, because. Who cares about not getting injured.
- The crowd below starts cheering for red bat? And Jay's confused as to WHY and HOW they can see them.
- Roy admits they may be cheering for something else. (he gets Roy's name from thoughts)
- He sees the rent-a-bat billboard and. Honestly? He's so tired.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- God he's bad at partnerships in this memory?
- But also, he is unreasonably fond of the guy he's working with.
- If this were literally anyone else, he would actually be furious.
- But instead, it's Roy Fucking Harper, and he knows they are basically stuck together forever.
- God damn it, Roy.
MEMORY 9
Brief summary:
- Jason is on a mission to prevent a massive terrorist bombing, perpetrated by the Russian mafia on a bunch of unsuspecting arabic kids.
- He pretends to be an undercover detective to get them to come with him, so he can grab the bombs.
- He knows he's on a strict timeline, but he's doing pretty good until the last girl, who is not where everyone expected her to be.
- She's actually on the London Bridge! WOW.
- And after some fighting and cool driving with his motorcycle, he gets her to hand him the backpack with the bomb.
- But the bomb has been tripped-- and he's stopped by an officer.
- Which gives us the "Not now, Constable, Daddy's busy" line
- Anyway because of the distraction, Jason doesn't have time to disarm the bomb. After a quick check, he throws it over the bridge, where it explodes harmlessly.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Add this to the "Maybe I wasn't such a bad guy?" memory pile.
- He knows that part of what makes him real mad is that this is a frame job on a bunch of high schoolers.
- Fuck the Russian mob, seriously.
- But also it's a little exhilarating. He wouldn't say he liked it, but...
- There's the feeling that he can't do anything but this. Nothing would be able to use his skills this way.
- Also, he can affect a British accent when he really wants to. He recognizes that he was doing a cockney accent, rather than the standard British affect.
MEMORY 10
QUICK SUMMARY:
- "Red Hood" was sent by Batman to look after Batgirl
- Basically he's pretty sure she's about to botch whatever she's doing because she's emotional about it
- And he's there to help her get justice/free her father
- INTRO TO BABS. INDICATION HE WORKS WITH THE FAMILY AND NOT ON HIS OWN.
Jason's immediate feelings:
- Cool, Batgirl's an old pro or something.
- Reconfirming "Red Hood" is his moniker/alter ego
- He's a lot more okay being manhandled by a girl than he realized
- Still not 100% sure on the relationship between him and his family though
- And yeah, he was always this cocky.
MEMORY 11
QUICK SUMMARY:
- Jason and his outlaws track Ras to the antarctic.
- Then get attacked by animen and the league of assassins.
- Circe cuts them and drops their blood into the Pandora Pits.
- AND THEN THEY ALL BECOME POSSESSED BY DEMONS.
Jason's immediate feelings:
- Nope nope nope nope nope
- Nah fam, this feels awful and he does not like it
- He can't remember what exactly he's experiencing in that possession but
- It feels extremely bad and he does not like the feeling of his mind breaking
- fuck ras al ghul. just. fuck him so much.
MEMORY 12
Summary:
- Jay is at an apple fest! He's being pushed all sorts of small town Americana here.
- He almost buys it, but never fully lets down his guard.
- And then they start shooting at him so, you know.
- Probably good.
- However the whole town goes after him?
- And, uh, he gets knocked out with a sledge hammer to the face
Immediate feelings Jay gets from this:
- Trust. fucking. no one.
- Seriously, if they're overly hospitable you should be on guard.
- He was already on guard.
- But also he can't survive a sledgehammer to the face can he? He has to be dead?
- But he knows he isn't, because he has memories from after this so he's very, very confused.
- ... time to start trying to figure out what exactly he can survive.
MEMORY 13
SUMMARY:
- Dick lied about dying.
- What a dick.
- Jason tries to be insensitive about it but Tim stops him.
MEMORY 14
SUMMARY:
- Jason and Dick are doing a stakeout and Jason asks Dick about his new girl.
- They bond over Dick talking about her temper
- Jason tells Dick that angry people are always looking for someone to direct their rage
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- First memory of Dick (just "Grayson")
- This is a positive family memory. He didn't have any of this?
- This is also kind of the first time he's felt like he has a family in his memories.
- He liked Grayson, too.
- He's well aware of his rage issues.
MEMORY 15
THIS IS LONG AND NOT ALL OF IT EVEN REMOTELY INVOLVES JASON, so the summary is:
- Jason is disguised and sneaking into a cult
- He is trying to track batman. He sees them with him captured.
- Hears they plan to kill him, so he tails along silently.
- When Batman breaks free, they shoot him, and then claim the current of the sewers took him
- So Jason jumps in after him
- When he finally finds him, he sees him losing his shit about being damned on top of a pile of corpses
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS:
- His. his first Robin memory. That didn't get eaten immediately.
- This is going to be a fucking *trip* to him, because it's going to be the clearest his head has ever felt.
- And it's his first real memory of Batman/Bruce.
- It's also the least angry he's ever felt?
- Actually all of his emotions feel in proportion to the situation, because this is fucked up.
- No, seriously, he's going to be completely stunned.
- he cares less about the content of the memory, because he's young so it probably worked out, what the fuck is wrong with his mind
MEMORY 16
SUMMARY:
- The Joker is an asshole.
- He's captured the bat family, and has convinced them all that he's actually ripped off their faces.
- He's set a trap that basically requires that if Bruce moves, then he'll set them all on fire.
- Then he proceeds to do joker things.
- Batman DOES move and DOES set them on fire, but, also he puts it out immediately
- Because these are HIS FUCKING CAVES.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Joker should die.
- Joker should die.
- How did he beat his face in with a crowbar and FAIL TO KILL HIM.
- Joker should die.
- Low key fatalistic about all this, like, ah yes.
- Of course. This is my life. Of course this crazy motherfucker would do this.
- How did I fail at killing him?
MEMORY 17
QUICK SUMMARY:
- It's Jason talking through how and why he put down his teacher with Talia.
- Finishes with her telling him "You are learning."
- And he agrees with her.
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS:
- Implicit and complete trust in Talia
- A more complete sense of why he did what he did in his third memory
- A strong sense of black and white justice. Some people deserve to be put down.
MEMORY 18
Summary:
- Completing off this memory. It shows the family going crazy off of Joker's laughing gas.
- The kids are basically begging each other to stop fighting but they all know they can't.
- Bruce finally triggers the anti-venom in the knick of time.
- Jason decides to go out drinking, rather than deal with that again.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Well he's not surprised, at least.
- It is extremely depressing, though. He'll want to drink after this memory.
- He's so, extremely fucking over the Joker.
- And even more frustrated after the heart game.
MEMORY 19
Summary:
- WE ARE GOING DEEP INTO BATMAN HISTORY. THIS IS JASON'S ORIGIN STORY COMIC.
- He learns SO MUCH about his background here!
- And also that his first time running into Batman was, you know. Stealing his tires.
- Aw, he was so precocious.
- Anyway, it ends with Batman giving him to Faye Gunn since he figures she'll put Jason on the straight and narrow.
- Ha Ha Ha oops.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- ... Actually, this is a super helpful memory, after the last one.
- His memories of being a kid are a breath of fresh air, actually. He's, what, 12? 13? Talon's age?
- This is nice.
- Big boob, classic kid insult.
- He WAS normal, once. A long time ago.
MEMORY 20
Summary:
- Jason meets Dick!
- Jason is Dick's replacement, and Dick is super Not Happy about that.
- They scuffle.
- Jason talks so much shit.
- Dick thinks he has Jason trapped, but Jason manages to get away at the last second.
- Then he's radio-ing Batman because he's confused, but Batman tells him and Dick, Nightwing, to go find Alfred.
- Dick then firmly takes over leading.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Yep, he was definitely a handful as a child.
- Now knows Dick's name, and not just Grayson.
- Hasn't OFFICIALLY remembered Alfred, but he's there too.
- Honestly, this whole memory is just kind of funny to him, even if it takes a serious turn at the end.
MEMORY 21
Summary:
- Immediately post Damian's death, Alfred and Jason are talking about how he won't "like this."
- "This" is hanging up Damian's uniform in the batcave. Alfred says he didn't like it when he hung up Jason's uniform.
- Jason justifies why this is worse, because he was just another robin.
- Alfred says that is not true.
- Then they both get attacked, but Jason's out first.
- And when he comes to, he tells Batman he's sorry, he failed.
- Batman just tells him don't worry about it, the league will help him find out who attacked them.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- Ah, that's who Alfred is.
- ...
- ...
- ... Yeah, he would probably die for Alfred. Immediately.
- The rest is so thoroughly unsurprising to him.
MEMORY 22
Summary:
- Jason calls all the heads of the Gotham drug trade and offers them a generous deal.
- He basically manhandles the shit out of them and tells them he's not asking them to join him, he's telling them.
- His one rule is to stay away from kids and school yards.
- He tosses the heads of their lieutenants onto the table below when they ask why they should do it.
- "These are the heads of all of your lieutenants. This took me two hours. Imagine what I could do with a whole night."
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- He's very angry.
- And this is part of a grander scheme. An important part, but there are other things he's worried about here.
- But he knows one thing: he feels absolute disgust at those people. But he knows that if he kills them, someone else will take their place.
- So he's gonna own this.
MEMORY 23
- In this version, the woman he finds IS Cathy Todd. He's not gonna know her as that, but somewhere along the line, she became his real mother and not his adopted mother. (hence why i'm not just linking to "Death in the Family" or the N52 version that just... glosses over everything)
- He thought she was dead, but he got lead on a goose chase to find she was alive.
- This was a trap that the Joker used to separate him and Batman.
- Then, the Joker tied him up and savagely beat him with a crowbar, while his mom watched and did nothing to help.
- Then the Joker set a bomb and tied his mother up to kill them both.
- Jason ended up mangling his hands to get out of the bindings, and then freed his mom.
- But they both discovered that the doors were locked, and Jason was way, way too brutalized to disarm the bomb.
- He probably would have died anyway, from the blood filling up his lungs.
- So, the bomb exploded, but long enough for him to have to sit with the fact that he was going to die.
Immediate feelings Jason gets from this:
- There's a certain smug "you can't hurt me as long as I don't let it seem like you're hurting me" in this memory that... is extremely familiar to him, even now.
- Panic and terror, and just an acute awareness of pain.
- And a certain finality. While Jason knows he somehow revives, he knows that for him in this moment? That was not a given. He was going to die, and that would be all she wrote.
This is also just going to lead to a complete overload of BSOD for Jason. It also, also unlocks his night terrors fully. So, he's not going to be dealing well with this, even if he puts up a front about it. This one was unlocked on day 234.
MEMORY 24&25
SUMMARY:
- This memory is gonna automatically purchase as two, much to Jason's annoyance.
- Anyway, this is a good memory between him and Bruce, following up on him as a kid trying to fix Bruce's father's watch.
- It's his birthday gift to Bruce. But he has to take it back because he hasn't quite finished fixing it.
- He finishes the favor much, much later. Post death.
- He leaves the watch for Bruce to find, rather than give it to him in person.
IMMEDIATE FEELINGS JASON GETS FROM THIS:
- He genuinely loved Bruce.
- Also, genuinely loved trying really hard to fix that watch, even as a kid.
- Ambient fondness for Alfred, who was definitely watching him work on it for "five months."
- He wasn't ALWAYS a pain in the ass as a kid... but don't let this ruin his rep.
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