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"This is Jason. Leave a message.

Or don't. I don't care."

Not a kid.

[ And definitely not pouting!! His expressions tightens up while he thinks back for a few moments ]

... When we met on the stairs. While I was trying to avoid a few different groups that had all shown up at once.

... Nope.

That was all me. I didn't actually get possessed until after God killed me. And if I let myself remember that properly, I definitely would have killed her five times over by now.

[ There's an obvious and lingering moment of surprise, but it begins to fade as Jason continues to talk.

He takes a slow, steadying breath ]

... I did try to kill the woman who killed North. After the last bad game ended.

Would you have kept killing her when she came back?

If she continued to refuse to leave, perhaps.

[he's doubtful. and he looks it.]

I see.

... I know it was not a good thing, but it is...

[ Trails off with a grumpy little puff of smoke ]

It's...something that can be improved on. I know that I need to maintain better control. And I will work with Silver and North to become better at it. You're doing something similar, aren't you?

[time to use Eris alert, and he doesn't particularly try to hide that he's using it.]

I think you skipped over my whole point, in your rush to reassure me.

[ There's a heavy dose of concern for Jay, and an under current of sympathy. He knows it's not really close to the same problem they're facing, but he can relate to the fear that something about himself is "bad".

And along with those feelings is freshly resurfaced fear that maybe he is bad and there really isn't anything to do about it. There's a part of him that knows it isn't true, but it sure doesn't stop the feeling from rearing it's ugly head. ]

Restate your point for me.

God fucking damn it, Talon.

[he is not about to give his little brother a complex.

but also, yes, that wasn't his point. it's just the frustration showing. this was the reason he warned he was a shitty brother.

bullshit like this, where he ends up, without even trying, striking some sort of nerve.]

—What?

This power's a blessing and a fucking curse.

[he inhales]

It's normal to want to kill someone for hurting someone you care about. Especially when that's something we were both trained to do. You've got a normal level of emotions for a 10 year old, but with the added ability to act on your worst impulses.