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[mind_blown]

"This is Jason. Leave a message.

Or don't. I don't care."

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Re: Day 196

[mind_blown]

[he looks a little amused at that, but since they're up there, and he's stressed, he's going to pull his cigarettes out. time for a smoke break.]

Everyone loves a redemption arc.

Re: Day 196

[iamverybadass]

And no one wants to believe a "kid" is a lost cause.

[ He absolutely made air quotes for that ]

Re: Day 196

[mind_blown]

Don't scare quote kid, kid.

[he's lighting his cigarette.]

Re: Day 196

[iamverybadass]

Do not tell me what to do. I do not fit the definition of "kid" that the majority of idols have, and you know it.

Re: Day 196

[mind_blown]

Please.

[a long inhale.]

Fuck their idea of a kid, you're still a fucking kid. Just because you could kill literally any of them with a toothpick if you wanted to doesn't change that.

Re: Day 196

[iamverybadass]

That is not the only reason! I have always been different from them. The way I think, the interests I have, the interests I do not have... I could go on.

Re: Day 196

[mind_blown]

That an argument I'm supposed to take seriously?

After the whole "mocking murderers in hell" bit we started out with?

Re: Day 196

[iamverybadass]

What is wrong with my argument?

[mind_blown]

[he exhales, and then rubs the bridge of his nose. he's too tired for this.]

You talked about how your mom made you feel like you were never good enough, right?

You ever stop and think about how much of you was tied up in that?

How that mighta just taken "being a kid" away from you?

[iamverybadass]

[ He grumbles and crosses his arms sullenly ]

And what am I supposed to do about that now? Indulge in childish antics? In Hell?

You and I both know my skills are better served being applied to other efforts.

[mind_blown]

Could do both.

[another inhale.]

It's Hell. There aren't any rules.

[iamverybadass]

There are no rules, but there are expectations. If I agree with people that I am a kid, they will expect me to act a certain way.

[mind_blown]

Kids aren't supposed to do what they're told.

They're obnoxious shits that think they're adults, and they're gonna tell all of us adults to goddamn treat them like it.

Sound about right?

[iamverybadass]

... You are not merely humoring me, are you?

[mind_blown]

Nah.

[and then another exhale, and he shrugs, waving the smoke away from the both of them.]

You've got my attention. But didn't say you'd like all of it.

[iamverybadass]

[ snorts ]

In any case, I don't think I'm an adult. I think I'm a teenager. Who happens to be more capable than most adults here.

[mind_blown]

Like that's hard.

Shit's complicated when you're no longer 8.

[iamverybadass]

I'm thirteen!

[mind_blown]

Like I said...

[iamverybadass]

[ Tosses a chocolate-dipped shortbread cookie at his head ]

[mind_blown]

[he's going to catch it, and then use his other hand to finish off the cigarette, his nerves calmed a little after the nicotine hit.]

[iamverybadass]

You are insufferable.

[mind_blown]

Guess that's why we didn't hang out back home.

[he flicks the cigarette over the edge of the building, and then takes a bite of the shortbread cookie.]

[iamverybadass]

I don't think I "hung out" with anyone but Richard.

[ His cookie!! This is what he gets for being careless with his own treats ]

[mind_blown]

[his cookie now, natch]

Grayson?