THE LOST DAYS... Round 2.

[mind_blown]

It's all darkness.

The feeling of nothingness, of being nothing. Of not existing. You have no thoughts, you will never have any thoughts again. While that fact is not comforting, because you cannot be comforted anymore, it is true.

There's a certain rest to being... nothing. And to both knowing and not knowing, that your time is done.

So it's all the more unfortunate when you feel, because you shouldn't feel. And the feeling is burning in your lungs, which you shouldn't have. Because you are- or were- nothing.

And then, you inhale a desperate gasp of air and open your eyes...

Comments

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

[ ...huh.

well—she's going to just... follow the voice. like, curiosity cuts through how pissy she is about this whole thing a little. ]

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[idolpro]

As she approaches the door, she is not her suddenly. She is aware suddenly that, her father is dead.

And the message he's left behind for her, in a recorded statement: "Jason, You are my greatest failure--"

She can't even hear the rest of it, as the very fragile foundation she's built beneath herself crumbles and shatters. She is not a failure. He is wrong. And she is the only one that can take on his mantle--

The image vanishes and she looks at a dilapidated room, a straight jacket tossed unceremoniously on the wall. The credentials for one "Harleen Quinzel" hang haphazardly on the wall, with papers scattered everywhere.

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

[ it takes her a moment to get her bearings again—

these are his memories, huh. ]

...what a hell of a last message.

[ is there anything on the paper? ]

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[idolpro]

i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure i am not a failure

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

Ah...

...ah.

Really, in that case, isn't he the one who failed you? He as much as said it.




Also, why the hell is there a straitjacket here. That's certainly not acceptable anymore. Who runs this place.

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[idolpro]

A flash, and the jacket is tied around you, as you stare dully into the face of a psychiatrist, pleading with you to please talk with them. It's one of the best ways to move forward.

But you refuse and--

The world goes back to normal, she is in the room, with the papers, and the jack, alone.

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

[ well, Dr. Harleen Quinzel is getting their credentials taken down from the wall and torn up

they clearly aren't someone who should be practicing! ]

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[idolpro]

More than you will ever know.

But the credentials easily fall to pieces.

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

[ honestly.

well, neat. but–hm. no one was in here, except a memory, but that has some implications about what else there is to be found around here, doesn't it?

she's just going to poke her head down the hall. ]

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[idolpro]

Well, the flowers are all... extinguished. In fact, this hall looks pretty easy to traverse. But you hear the door to the stairwell close?

Re: ARKHAM ASYLUM

[widenessofthesea]

[ well—

there's enough lingering irritation, like an afterimage that won't go away, that she's not eager to seek him out, and if he's confident enough to go off on his own, then he should manage fine.

what else is in these rooms up here? ]

CW: SPOUSAL/CHILD ABUSE

[idolpro]

As you step into one of the rooms, hear... shouting?

Your vision changes, and you're just a child hiding under a table, while your father drunkenly beats your mother, and yells for you to stop fucking hiding. When you finally come out of hiding, it's just anger, and fury.

And you punch him in the face.

Or-- you punch a padded wall? This room is stained and padded, and smells... bad. Tainted.

Re: CW: SPOUSAL/CHILD ABUSE

[widenessofthesea]

[ she shakes her hand out, frowning.

does it seem like there's some... source, of it being tainted? ]

Re: CW: SPOUSAL/CHILD ABUSE

[idolpro]

This just seems like it's the natural state of this room. Like it's always been there, and will always be there.

Re: CW: SPOUSAL/CHILD ABUSE

[widenessofthesea]

...some things are just like that, huh.

[ well, she twirls her knife between her fingers, idly, and leaves the room, still frowning deeply.

how many levels are there to this place, anyway? ]

EVENT

[idolpro]

She doesn't get the chance to ask.

Suddenly, the area seems to have a sickly green glow. To be honest, it's almost overpowering suddenly-- and she feels...

Despair? Self-loathing? Deeply, in her bones. It is hard to imagine how much she hates herself, and what she's willing to do to self-destruct, just to validate that feeling.

It's all too much, actually. It's hard to deal with.

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[widenessofthesea]

[ self-loathing doesn't come easily to her, but it feels like the weight of being crushed under the weight of so much hate and sadness and anger that she really just wants to rip herself apart because it's what she can control—

you know?

but—no. she knows who she hates, because 2d6+cool=9. ]

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[mind_blown]

What're you doing?

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[widenessofthesea]

[ snapped— ]

What?

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[mind_blown]

You're snooping around my memories.

[he sounds... angry. frustrated.]

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[widenessofthesea]

[ why is he so tall. ]

Well, it's not as if I was left with terribly much in the way of instructions apart from "the green stuff is bad." Could've figured that one out based on the last thirty seconds.

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[mind_blown]

Fucking brat.

[he sounds as though he despises the person that told her that.

but it's a mystery.

actually-- she sort of feels the depths of hate he has for that kid.]

Your instructions shoulda been "get the hell out."

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[widenessofthesea]

Well, went back the way we came and we got here, so how well would that have worked?

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[mind_blown]

Can't believe I gotta explain the idea of a conceptual location. And how stuff might not be what it seems.

Re: EVENT (cw: brief suicidality)

[widenessofthesea]

Dreamscapes, I get it, I get it.

What are the fucking flowers about?