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[mind_blown]

"This is Jason. Leave a message.

Or don't. I don't care."

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[iamverybadass]

I was only being cautious. I have had memories myself that left me..."that wigged out".

[mind_blown]

I appreciate it.

[he sighs.]

[iamverybadass]

... I am sorry that you recalled something like that.

[mind_blown]

... It was going to happen eventually.

I guess it was on me to realize something was off.

[iamverybadass]

It's still unfortunate.

... Would it change anything if you'd noticed before?

[mind_blown]

Probably would have freaked you out less.

[he can joke at the expense of his own misery. it's fine.]

[iamverybadass]

That sounds like a problem to blame the producers for.

[ Was Jay expecting him to take this anything but seriously ]

[mind_blown]

[he can take it seriously, jay will try not to.]

I'm with you 9 times out of 10. Probably even 99 out of 100.

But I've got Eris Alert. I know what normal minds look like.

Problem is, we've got so many crazies here, it's easy to forget.

[iamverybadass]

Really. And how many minds have you looked at other than mine?

[mind_blown]

Trade secret.

[iamverybadass]

I see.

In any case, I would not compare you to the other crazies. You are flawed, but you...try to work around them. Demanding your space when you know you cannot handle a conversation, for example.

[mind_blown]

A very positive way of framing that, thank you.

[iamverybadass]

It's the correct way to frame it.

[mind_blown]

You can't have forgotten the drawbacks of that.

C'mon, Talon. Buddy, you've already ran face first into my issues.

[iamverybadass]

Because I ignored your request to be allowed space.

Of course I haven't forgotten it, but we addressed that problem already. Does you recalling the source of it mean I should be upset about it again?

[mind_blown]

[the smile slowly drops from his face, replaced with something a little colder. and he slowly shakes his head.]

You know... I never asked you. So maybe you don't know. Maybe I just assumed you did, but all you were doing was being a kid trying to react to an adult losing his shit.

[a pause]

When did you think I got possessed in the house?

[iamverybadass]

Not a kid.

[ And definitely not pouting!! His expressions tightens up while he thinks back for a few moments ]

... When we met on the stairs. While I was trying to avoid a few different groups that had all shown up at once.

[mind_blown]

... Nope.

That was all me. I didn't actually get possessed until after God killed me. And if I let myself remember that properly, I definitely would have killed her five times over by now.

[iamverybadass]

[ There's an obvious and lingering moment of surprise, but it begins to fade as Jason continues to talk.

He takes a slow, steadying breath ]

... I did try to kill the woman who killed North. After the last bad game ended.

[mind_blown]

Would you have kept killing her when she came back?

[iamverybadass]

If she continued to refuse to leave, perhaps.

[mind_blown]

[he's doubtful. and he looks it.]

I see.

[iamverybadass]

... I know it was not a good thing, but it is...

[ Trails off with a grumpy little puff of smoke ]

It's...something that can be improved on. I know that I need to maintain better control. And I will work with Silver and North to become better at it. You're doing something similar, aren't you?

[mind_blown]

[time to use Eris alert, and he doesn't particularly try to hide that he's using it.]

I think you skipped over my whole point, in your rush to reassure me.

[iamverybadass]

[ There's a heavy dose of concern for Jay, and an under current of sympathy. He knows it's not really close to the same problem they're facing, but he can relate to the fear that something about himself is "bad".

And along with those feelings is freshly resurfaced fear that maybe he is bad and there really isn't anything to do about it. There's a part of him that knows it isn't true, but it sure doesn't stop the feeling from rearing it's ugly head. ]

Restate your point for me.