sad bird in snow: Is that counter-culture if you use an object of culture for something far from its original purpose sad bird in snow: I don't actually know what counter-culture means.
sad bird in snow: I can only co-sign that kind of feeling. sad bird in snow: I just have to hope since I think he deserves all the love in the world, you know?
sad bird in snow: So he was right when he was drunkenly telling me that you were doing the "pushing him away for his own good" thing. sad bird in snow: He knows you're doing it, though, so it's not going to work.
Jason: we've talked. Jason: he thinks its no big deal, we'll get thru it 2gether. Jason: i think it's a pretty big fuckin deal Jason: can't even admit obvious stuff Jason: can't even control some stupid half-cocked impulse & thats worse now Jason: u kno, i got other memories that kinda paint that im damaged goods Jason: that ill do my best to destroy some1 who doesnt even deserve it Jason: tried to kill my lil bro Jason: other lil bro. the kid who came after me Jason: bc they erased me. it wasnt even his fault. Jason: but it was a stupid fuckin impulse i got & i followed thru Jason: i dont think its a good idea for me 2 b there
sad bird in snow: Oh. sad bird in snow: yeah sad bird in snow: sorry, that's... I mean, I don't have a good way to say it over text to indicate how much that... that sounds fucking awful to deal with? sad bird in snow: my bad impulses have never been like that but I get the feeling I think
sad bird in snow: Mm. sad bird in snow: Sorry I sad bird in snow: Came off kind of aggressive, I guess sad bird in snow: I've been dealing with a parade of very strong opinions and figured I'd just, I don't know, try and get all of them over with or something
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sad bird in snow: Is that counter-culture if you use an object of culture for something far from its original purpose
sad bird in snow: I don't actually know what counter-culture means.
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Jason: i've bn using it 2 b annoying
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Jason: nooo
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Jason: 2 limiting
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sad bird in snow: And also Cardinal.
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Jason: just needs 2 see the rest
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sad bird in snow: Someday I hope his family gets their shit sorted out.
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Jason: but he's important to nero
Jason: so w/e
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sad bird in snow: I just have to hope since I think he deserves all the love in the world, you know?
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Jason: i know
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sad bird in snow: I don't know if he officially told you you're invited, but you're obviously invited to the wedding.
[ "I fucking dare you to decline, Mr. 'I'm definitely fine'" ]
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Jason: & i don't think it'd be a good idea 4 me 2 go.
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Jason: 2 b perfectly frank
Jason: but mayb if i went i'd act enough mess that he wld get it.
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sad bird in snow: He knows you're doing it, though, so it's not going to work.
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Jason: he thinks its no big deal, we'll get thru it 2gether.
Jason: i think it's a pretty big fuckin deal
Jason: can't even admit obvious stuff
Jason: can't even control some stupid half-cocked impulse & thats worse now
Jason: u kno, i got other memories that kinda paint that im damaged goods
Jason: that ill do my best to destroy some1 who doesnt even deserve it
Jason: tried to kill my lil bro
Jason: other lil bro. the kid who came after me
Jason: bc they erased me. it wasnt even his fault.
Jason: but it was a stupid fuckin impulse i got & i followed thru
Jason: i dont think its a good idea for me 2 b there
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sad bird in snow: yeah
sad bird in snow: sorry, that's... I mean, I don't have a good way to say it over text to indicate how much that... that sounds fucking awful to deal with?
sad bird in snow: my bad impulses have never been like that but I get the feeling I think
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Jason: its fine. im dealing
Jason: but hopefully u get it now.
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sad bird in snow: Sorry I
sad bird in snow: Came off kind of aggressive, I guess
sad bird in snow: I've been dealing with a parade of very strong opinions and figured I'd just, I don't know, try and get all of them over with or something
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