mind_blown | [imeeji continuations]

[hot. it was only a moment, and Jay can support his own head now. But he isn’t letting Griffin just pull away from the kiss, because his hips don’t stop. A forcible reminder that he isn’t done. It’s not the best kissing he’s done, needing to take a puff of air every few moments or so. ]

Noooot done yet. [he says, practically into his mouth.

His hand plucks Griffin’s hand from his hair and shoved it back above the bed, above his head, pinning it there. ]

[He doesn't fight it - how could he, when his whole body was lost in an orgasmic stupor? But the sudden force calls him to attention again, instinctively bucking against the aggression in Jay's kiss.

But from the muffled moan in his throat, it's a domination Griffin accepts. His body's yours, now use him - you'd better cum hard enough that you dream of him later.]

[it's a date. maybe a dream date. who knows. but he can recognize acquiescence, especially when Griffin makes it that obvious. his breath hitches, and his grip on his hand tightens, as he's feeding off of the warmth and the slickness of Griffin's body underneath him.

he can reach the edge at his own pace, all that pent up energy drawing up and coiling tighter in the pit of his stomach. His eyes shut tight, and sweat drips off of him, and he slams against Griffin, hard, for a moment, and bitten off curses escape from his lips unbidden.

until he finally goes over the cliff, freezing as he cums, hard, inside of Griffin.

he takes a moment to catch his breath, a half grin on his face, and then pulls out, so that he can flop next to him. on the bed.]

[That last thrust forces as pained gasp from Griffin's lungs, the moment frozen as it hangs in the air-- until he feels Jay gush into him. Griffin bites down on his lip as it fills him, to an odd feeling of... satisfaction. It's warming, he feels glad to have it, to have done this for... Jay.

He sighs, content in the afterglow of such violence. That was the first time he'd ever felt the same high from fighting as he did from sex. And it wasn't even entirety the Machai taking.

...but GOD did it ache like a motherfucker. There was probably at least a little blood when Jay pulled out, cool. That's fine. He's just gonna lay here for a while. Panting.]

...I'm only counting that... as one win.

Edited 2019-12-26 20:01 (UTC)

Okay.

[a beat]

Next time... take longer on the foreplay. It'll make everything a lot easier.

[even though he knows that's probably his fault. he was too impulsive for his own good, sometimes. he needs to catch his breath, needs to take stock of whatever mess they made. but he's pretty pleased with himself, relaxation setting in. he pushes himself up onto his elbows, so it was easier to see Griffin.

he knows he had requested cuddles, but admittedly, he was bad at that sort of intimacy. it was a slow process of figuring it out with Silk, and with Glacies.]

[HUFFS,] And whose fault is that?!

[It's a reactive gripe, but not a harsh one. They were both kinda out of their mind...

Then Jay's words sink in. Next time... He's quiet for a moment as he weighs the concept this, of Jay, in his chest.

He wants a rematch. There needs to be a next time if he wants a rematch.

He rolls his head over to look straight at Jay with those blue eyes - honest, confused, pretty damn embarrassed, but desperate for some kind of acknowledgement. Long strands of silver hair fall into his face and he has to push them to the side.]

Did you... want a 'next time'?

Edited 2019-12-26 20:22 (UTC)

Why wouldn't I?

[it's a blunt acknowledgement. but it brings back the memory of Griffin's question from before, and he pauses. and then exhales, a slightly bemused look on his face.]

I don't know 'what' this is. Friends with benefits, probably? [ironically, a label he's more comfortable with than most, but--] In the middle of sex is probably not the time to double check that.

[but he was too impulsive, he knows that he didn't really give Griffin a chance to check before.

and then he lets himself fall back, crossing his hands behind his head.]

Just as a warning, I'm a fucking awful cuddler.

[Mumbles,] I thought we came up to talk...

[Fine, if Jay wasn't gonna cuddle, then... he's just gonna roll over close to him and. Bury his head between Jay's blood smeared chest and the bedsheets. The smell, at least, was comforting(?)

Griffin's voice is quiet and, now that he had a moment to think, deeply self conscious. The ~~Catholic~~ guilt was rearing it's head.]

This isn't something I... I don't do this with everyone I fight. You know that, right?

[he doesn't mind that, and he doesn't do anything to change positions, the closeness was something he could handle in this setting. he figured, Griffin deserved him not being that much of a piece of shit (even if the temptation was still there). But it's his words that surprise him, because he... sort of? understands the implications of them?

he figures the subtext is the most direct, especially after everything he knows of Griffin and his relationships. but he needs to clarify, and so he glances down at him.]

So, you're saying this is special?

[Griffin goes painfully red and he wheezes like a dying animal. Way to choose such romantic wording when this was nothing like romance. Not in the way he defined it, anyway. Romance is soft and kind and thoughtful. He had romance. He cherished it. This was... not it.]

Fuck, don't say it like that!?

[Even the sex, despite having some firsts for him, wasn't what he'd call special. They'd just gotten carried away, doing what they always do.

Still flustered, Griffin struggles to describe it.]

You're just-- it's different. I want to beat you. All the time. But I want you t'beat me, too. So you're strong. And... worth submitting to.

[When he says it out loud, it sounds crazy. It wasn't special but... it feels important. Griffin falls quiet.]

I don't know. I dunno what it is.

[he looks relieved when griffin protests. Now, he had that potential meaning eliminated, it just left the elaboration. Which he listens to thoughtfully, before noting,]

Good. I can be a rival, since that sounds like what you want. But this isn’t any kind of love.

[except maybe fighting, but realistically, this felt more like instinct. More raw. And he didn’t need to add another person to his list of “people to disappoint with his shortcomings” list. But that, he doesn’t say out loud.]

Kind of surprised you even want something like this in the first place— thought you were raised to be a prude?

I've still got demon blood. It feels... natural t'that half of me.

[Mumbles, red faced,] The prude is fucking dying, though.

[Rival. That felt right. Whether love factored in... He loved fighting. He loved fighting Jay. Did that mean he loved Jay? This was a singular, focused feeling - aimed at one man, that much was certain. Griffin didn't understand his own urges well enough to correct him.

He raises his head just enough to glare at him, serious but also, awkward and anxious. Trying to hide the fact that he longed to be something less disposable than a meaningless fling, and failing miserably.]

S-so... this just a benefits thing to you?

Edited 2019-12-26 22:58 (UTC)

...

[he glances back at him, struggling for a moment with the implications there. It doesn’t occur to him that Griffin wanted special— but without the romance. A singular focus. Because Jay assumes most of the time, it’s just a fling. That’s how he and Silk started, though definitely not what they were now]

The prude can relax. I don’t like kissing and telling. Even if this is the only time this ever happens. I’ll still fight you whenever you want...

Not like anyone else pushes me.

[he shrugs.]

Just... like you said, I’m... really bad at controlling my impulses.

[Maybe pathetically, Griffin's eyes brighten when Jay tells him he's the only one to push him. It's the look of a kid who'd never been told he was good enough, finally being acknowledged by someone they respected. For a moment it looks like his heart's in his throat and he has to swallow, hard.

It's so transparent, but that was enough to make him feel special. And he relaxes against Jay immediately - with a small smile, despite trying to play it cool.]

Whatever. As long as it was-- good.

[it was good, right, tell him it was good]

[he doesn’t know what he expected— but it wasn’t that. He looks down at Griffin, and he seems to be working through what just happened. It hits him that maybe he just misunderstood. Or maybe he said something that changed Griffin’s mind. Both could have worked, since he knows Griffin tends to have a one track mind.]

For a prude... yeah. I had fun.

[he then glances back up.]

You’re probably not gonna turn into a degenerate like me. Just so you know.

Phft. Jerk.

[He's still smiling though, despite himself. Idly he traces the claw marks down the front of Jay's chest with a feeling of satisfaction.]

...We'll see if you can still say that on the rematch.

I'll be very surprised if you manage that.

Not impossible, but really not necessary.

[That kind of statement just stirs up his competitive streak again. Huff.]

As if. You're just a jerk, not a degenerate.

Both. I'm both.

How exactly are you degenerate and I'm not?

Because you said the prude in you was dying.

[he reaches down and lightly flicks some of griffin's hair.]

You've got the guilt over sleeping with me. You gotta make sure I know this isn't normal for you.

Meanwhile, I've definitely fucked people here and felt not a god damned thing about it.

[Grumbles,] That prude is there 'cause I was raised in a town of hypocrites who'd look down at the less fortunate just to make themselves feel righteous. I'm not exactly happy they managed t'plant their shitty outlook in me.

I'd rather be degenerate than be like them.

You know there's a middle ground, right?

Just pointing that out.

You're not that shitty. That's all.

[EYE ROLLS.]

You should figure out what the hell you wanna be, not just try to out do whatever the hell it is I'm doing.

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