jason "why am i like this" todd (
mind_blown) wrote2019-01-24 08:55 am
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THE LOST DAYS... Round 1.
It's all darkness.
The feeling of nothingness, of being nothing. Of not existing. You have no thoughts, you will never have any thoughts again. While that fact is not comforting, because you cannot be comforted anymore, it is true.
There's a certain rest to being... nothing. And to both knowing and not knowing, that your time is done.
So it's all the more unfortunate when you feel, because you shouldn't feel. And the feeling is burning in your lungs, which you shouldn't have. Because you are- or were- nothing.
And then, you inhale a desperate gasp of air and open your eyes...
The feeling of nothingness, of being nothing. Of not existing. You have no thoughts, you will never have any thoughts again. While that fact is not comforting, because you cannot be comforted anymore, it is true.
There's a certain rest to being... nothing. And to both knowing and not knowing, that your time is done.
So it's all the more unfortunate when you feel, because you shouldn't feel. And the feeling is burning in your lungs, which you shouldn't have. Because you are- or were- nothing.
And then, you inhale a desperate gasp of air and open your eyes...
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I'm not just a death wish, you know.
And besides. I can't die. You kill me and boom. [his hands spread out.] The whole thing comes crashing down. 50-50 on if it takes you with it, but you'll just come back right.
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Both of us are going to be stuck with some shadow like you who'll always be there waiting for an opportunity forever, probably. But you've got enough people willing to sit on you when you try.
So learn to take a fucking rest.
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And the inmates are running the asylum right now.
[he then rolls back to stand up neatly, out of range of headbutting.]
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Cypress is right, you know. You're insufferable when you're like this.
...is this a last-ditch effort because the flowers are going away?
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He wasn't very useful this time.
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[he steps back, sighing in frustration.]
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Could burn down the game tower instead.
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Maybe I'll try in real life. I could probably sweet talk Hood into allowing that one.
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[ funny jokes. ]
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Which is a shame. But not "kill everyone in the whole world," like you said.
[he raises an eyebrow]
And are you trying to relate to me?
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Oh, this is that ongoing drama.
If I had my way, I would've ended the whole thing. My hands of it and moved on.
None of us are comfortable with it, just one of us's got enough attachment. And he gets veto power.
I'm not a fan of the new regime over it. And I'm not the only one.
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I meant that we're both sad and questionably alive and prone to doing deeply stupid things out of self-loathing, but sure.
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That's the thing.
I'm trying to tell you to not do the 'I relate to you' bit. I don't care.
You won. I don't particularly like you, and this is gonna be another disappointment like all the other ones I'm slowly, painfully remembering.
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but. ]
Please shut up.
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Nah.
Sides, traipse around a bit more. I'm sure you'll both feel better, won't you? Maybe get a few more scratches and extricate yourselves from somewhere you don't belong.
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(like, intentionally missing, and also a rifle is hard to aim one-handed anyway and she's injured, but.) ]
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So... what, exactly, was the point of that?
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So catharsis, probably.
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